Twenty-Five: I’m Not Done

Sunnyside up,
Nine pounds and overcooked
A baby girl
was brought into this world

Born into a family of love
Innocent and shy
She believed the age to stay,
was the wise age of five.

Though it couldn’t be stopped
she continued to grow,
with a wealth of interests
and good marks to show.

Three states, two degrees,
moments of pride and moments of shame
adventures and experiences
that only she can claim.

Twenty years later I’ll admit to ye,
that she is me.
Straight up adulting
and halfway to fifty.

The day of my birth,
another trip around the sun.
It all went by so fast,
there better be more to come…

…because I’m not done.

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13 Things To Do When You Are Having a Rough Day

What a week. It has been a very difficult time, but we cannot lose hope! Remember to do the things that make you happy or make you feel at peace. I understand there are certain issues, especially right now, that won’t go away overnight, but you must think of your present self. Soothe every part of your being; mentally, physically, spiritually and socially . Here are a few things I like to do to keep myself sane:

  1. Walk on the sunny side of the street. The vitamin D will do you all sorts of good!  http://www.self.com/story/sunlight-benefits
  2. Remember that you are a winner…In the very beginning of your days, you were the one that won the race. You are here on purpose.
  3. Scream. My friends and I find scream therapy very helpful. Scream into a pillow if that’s all you can do, but there’s something about just letting it out. Just don’t scare your neighbors.photo-1472414113715-7cc07153bd86
  4. Sing. In the shower, in the car, while cooking, while walking down the street, in front of an audience at your local karaoke bar…sing, like nobody’s there but you.
  5. Listen to music that reminds you of a good day. The beauty of sense memory. Everyone has a song that they associate to a happy memory, here is mine from Europe.
  6. Run, Dance, Exercise. Endorphins are wonderful, the only addiction you need.
  7. Stretch, do yoga. Try not to think, just focus on your body.photo-1473088555253-cc83bbc5dae3
  8. Read or watch a movie. Put yourself in a different world. We must always face reality but it’s okay to take a small vacation from it.
  9. Write. Put your thoughts on paper. Read them back. Discover how the weight of your problems change over time.
  10. Blog. Put your thoughts out there for the world, within reason 🙂 Ask for feedback if you feel like you want it.
  11. Call your mom or your best friend.
  12. Breathe. In through your nose, out through your mouth.
  13. Be in the present. Nothing matters except for right now. Just be, for a while. Recognize the natural beauty of our planet.

A Note to the Recently Elected

You did it. Check it off your bucket list. America chose you to lead the country for the next four years. As crazy as it is to believe, you are the President of the United States of America.

You are certainly unique to any other candidate, ever. You are unexpected. You are different. You are change. You have confidence in your beliefs.

But don’t you forget, you are the face of our country now. You are the voice of millions of human beings. You may have supporters, but you have so many…non-supporters…

There’s a lot of doubt in your qualifications, not to mention…

The media blows up in concern for what you might do or say. The comments of your prejudices and negative behavior towards humans of your country and those of other countries create disbelief in your abilities to “Make America Great Again.”

We need someone to trust. And to reach that point…well…you have your work cut out for you. My freaking facebook wall and twitter feed is a bunch of angry hate mail addressed to you. I’ll take the food videos, baby announcements, gym pics and the relationship over-shares back.

America voted. Though not everyone is happy with the results, the country did their part. Now you must do yours, prove that you deserve to represent the people. Prove that you care about the well-being of humans, every single one.

This great universe gave us Earth to thrive on. We are one, and who knows how long we have to make this life everything we want it to be.

Please, don’t mess this up.

 

 

 

 

Second Thoughts

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Even if you don’t have them for long, everyone has second thoughts about one decision or another in their life.

We use the phrase, “on second thought” to express that we have given something more thought, or that we are reconsidering something.

As fun as it it to be spontaneous, sometimes you have to rethink, reevaluate, etc. Take a second look at your situation… are you happy? If the answer is no, you should be having second thoughts! You gotta think about number one!

Though these decisions we make vary in importance…

“On second thought, I will have that cup of coffee.”

“On second thought, I don’t think I want to go out tonight.”

“I’m having second thoughts on not taking the job.”

“I’m having second thoughts about our engagement.”

…Every decision you make there is the potential for second thoughts. You are a human. We think we know what we want, but we love to change our minds. We think, then we over think … We make ourselves, and others, a little bit crazy. But it’s OKAY!

Hopefully, in the end, you figure out what’s best for you and the situation you’re in and everyone will be better for it.

I encourage the second thought, especially when playing it safe. Give adventure a chance, try something new, talk to that person across the room before they talk to you, learn a new skill, dye your hair, try a new style, order something you wouldn’t normally order,  make the first move. Life begins at the end of your comfort zone. Don’t let those once in lifetime opportunities pass you by.

Make yourself happy.

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In order to kick ass you must first lift up your foot.

“In order to kick ass you must first lift up your foot. —Jen Sincero; author, coach, self-quoter”

For the past month and a half, I have been unemployed. Graduating college and trying to find a job is probably one of the most stressful times in a person’s life. Finding a job, in general, is hard, but there is that added stress right after college. You spend four years preparing for your career in an established institution … You graduate … Then you decide to get an advanced degree, that’s two more years (for me)! Everyone says how proud they are of you and that you can do anything, but for some reason, you feel no sense of accomplishment. You apply, and apply, and apply and then you wait.

But then … You start receiving replies! All at once, several companies you’ve applied to decide to reach out to you within a couple days of each other. At last, skype interviews commence, phone interviews begin. A couple places bring you in for in-person interviews. And then … You wait some more.

It is borderline torturous.

You try to keep yourself busy but your stream of consciousness goes something like this …

Where else could I apply? What’s close… I don’t have a car. Could I ride my bike that far? Does that bike even work? Where could I get a bike for cheap? I guess I could borrow my brother’s car sometimes, or my mom’s. What could I do at home? There’s got to be a way to make money at home, something … I have bills coming, maybe I can call to lower my payment. Being an adult sucks. Ugh, I’m gonna watch Netflix.

One Hour Later

Okay, back to work. Indeed.com, here we go. What other skills can I search? Am I good enough though … I need to work on my portfolio … (opens WordPress) … I need to get better at this, and this, and this … (opens lynda.com) … Oh, let’s learn about this!

One Hour Later

Ugh, I’ve been sitting here too long. I should workout. Gosh, I wish I had money for a gym membership. Maybe I could work at a gym? Okay, one more application. Must … Earn … Money … Man I’m hungry. Damnit, I need money for that too.

This continues, day after day. Depression and anxiety start to take over. You start to think to yourself, “It’s over, I’ll live on the street … ” “I am not good enough” “No one wants to hire me” “I just will sleep forever, and watch Netflix … damn that costs money too”

Slams head on desk.

Then you realize something. It’s all a process. A journey with ups and downs, twists and turns. This is the world we live in. All of these wonderful people in my life tell me I can do this, am I missing something? This is when I turned to my books …

During my job search process, I finally reached the “inspired” phase. Mostly because I started reading the book, You Are a Badass, by Jen Sincero. There’s something about a stranger telling me, that I’m a badass, that made me want to read more… how does she know? This surely can’t apply to everyone.

I was wrong. The following passages changed my perspective…

“You are perfect. To think anything less is as pointless as a river thinking that it’s got too many curves or that it moves too slowly or that its rapids are too rapid. Says who? You’re on a journey with no defined beginning, middle or end. There are no wrong twists and turns. There is just being. And your job is to be as you as you can be. This is why you’re here. To shy away from who you truly are would leave the world you-less. You are the only you there is and ever will be. I repeat, you are the only you there is and ever will be. Do not deny the world its one and only chance to bask in your brilliance.”

“You are loved. Massively. Ferociously. Unconditionally. The Universe is totally freaking out about how awesome you are. It’s got you wrapped in a warm gorilla hug of adoration. It wants to give you everything you desire. It wants you to be happy. It wants you to see what it sees in you.”

“Nobody who ever accomplished anything big or new or worth raising a celebratory fist in the air did it from their comfort zone. They risked ridicule and failure and sometimes even death.”

“If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.     —Lao Tzu; ancient Chinese philosopher, founder of Taoism, could have been one guy or a mythical compilation of many, nobody really knows for sure” 

― Jen SinceroYou Are a Badass: How to Stop Doubting Your Greatness and Start Living an Awesome Life

This book has changed my life and I highly recommend it! (Especially the audio book). This book got me to today, the day I am proud to announce that I have been offered a position at the University of Michigan as an AV Technician! Go blue!

We all go through changes and stressful times, where it feels like no one else understands…and honestly, they don’t. I don’t care what anyone says … Because you are the only you. You are the only one who knows how you feel. You are the only one who can make decisions towards the ultimate you. Just know, that you are loved. By the universe, the people and things and experiences that make you happy, and that make you come alive, you are loved. And in time, your badass-self will take the next step towards your next adventure, you just have to lift up your foot.

The Dreams, Wishes and Goals of a Thirteen Year Old

I started this list of life goals in 2005, when I was thirteen. I added to it a few times in middle and high school and I’ve checked a few things off that I have accomplished since. The way it’s written below is what it looks like on the first page of this journal, cross throughs, checkmarks, excessive exclamation points and all.

“DREAM — When we take time to dream, we discover the many windows to our soul.” – Isabella Burani

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The reasons I keep journals never diminish, I love seeing the growth in my ideas and thoughts.

Dreams/Wishes AND Goals 

  • Go to college (A university)/get a well paying job that I like ✓
  • Be in band through high school 
  • Become good awesome at the piano
  • Start a family (after I’m 20…maybe 25…at least)
  • Stay in touch with my family and friends even after I start my own family
  • Become Bilingual (English and Spanish)
  • Go to France ✓
  • Go to Ireland, go to Australia
  • Do whatever I can to stay healthy
  • Never drink any alcohol of any kind or smoke
  • Be in cheerleading through high school ✓
  • Become a really good singer
  • Be the person I want to be!!!!!!!!
  • Always be brave!!!!!
  • Let my voice be heard
  • Never stop taking photographs
  • Finish my scrapbooks
  • Keep writing poetry
  • Graduate high school with a 3.6 or higher ✓
  • Fill this book with my thoughts
  • Have no enemies