In order to kick ass you must first lift up your foot.

“In order to kick ass you must first lift up your foot. —Jen Sincero; author, coach, self-quoter”

For the past month and a half, I have been unemployed. Graduating college and trying to find a job is probably one of the most stressful times in a person’s life. Finding a job, in general, is hard, but there is that added stress right after college. You spend four years preparing for your career in an established institution … You graduate … Then you decide to get an advanced degree, that’s two more years (for me)! Everyone says how proud they are of you and that you can do anything, but for some reason, you feel no sense of accomplishment. You apply, and apply, and apply and then you wait.

But then … You start receiving replies! All at once, several companies you’ve applied to decide to reach out to you within a couple days of each other. At last, skype interviews commence, phone interviews begin. A couple places bring you in for in-person interviews. And then … You wait some more.

It is borderline torturous.

You try to keep yourself busy but your stream of consciousness goes something like this …

Where else could I apply? What’s close… I don’t have a car. Could I ride my bike that far? Does that bike even work? Where could I get a bike for cheap? I guess I could borrow my brother’s car sometimes, or my mom’s. What could I do at home? There’s got to be a way to make money at home, something … I have bills coming, maybe I can call to lower my payment. Being an adult sucks. Ugh, I’m gonna watch Netflix.

One Hour Later

Okay, back to work., here we go. What other skills can I search? Am I good enough though … I need to work on my portfolio … (opens WordPress) … I need to get better at this, and this, and this … (opens … Oh, let’s learn about this!

One Hour Later

Ugh, I’ve been sitting here too long. I should workout. Gosh, I wish I had money for a gym membership. Maybe I could work at a gym? Okay, one more application. Must … Earn … Money … Man I’m hungry. Damnit, I need money for that too.

This continues, day after day. Depression and anxiety start to take over. You start to think to yourself, “It’s over, I’ll live on the street … ” “I am not good enough” “No one wants to hire me” “I just will sleep forever, and watch Netflix … damn that costs money too”

Slams head on desk.

Then you realize something. It’s all a process. A journey with ups and downs, twists and turns. This is the world we live in. All of these wonderful people in my life tell me I can do this, am I missing something? This is when I turned to my books …

During my job search process, I finally reached the “inspired” phase. Mostly because I started reading the book, You Are a Badass, by Jen Sincero. There’s something about a stranger telling me, that I’m a badass, that made me want to read more… how does she know? This surely can’t apply to everyone.

I was wrong. The following passages changed my perspective…

“You are perfect. To think anything less is as pointless as a river thinking that it’s got too many curves or that it moves too slowly or that its rapids are too rapid. Says who? You’re on a journey with no defined beginning, middle or end. There are no wrong twists and turns. There is just being. And your job is to be as you as you can be. This is why you’re here. To shy away from who you truly are would leave the world you-less. You are the only you there is and ever will be. I repeat, you are the only you there is and ever will be. Do not deny the world its one and only chance to bask in your brilliance.”

“You are loved. Massively. Ferociously. Unconditionally. The Universe is totally freaking out about how awesome you are. It’s got you wrapped in a warm gorilla hug of adoration. It wants to give you everything you desire. It wants you to be happy. It wants you to see what it sees in you.”

“Nobody who ever accomplished anything big or new or worth raising a celebratory fist in the air did it from their comfort zone. They risked ridicule and failure and sometimes even death.”

“If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.     —Lao Tzu; ancient Chinese philosopher, founder of Taoism, could have been one guy or a mythical compilation of many, nobody really knows for sure” 

― Jen SinceroYou Are a Badass: How to Stop Doubting Your Greatness and Start Living an Awesome Life

This book has changed my life and I highly recommend it! (Especially the audio book). This book got me to today, the day I am proud to announce that I have been offered a position at the University of Michigan as an AV Technician! Go blue!

We all go through changes and stressful times, where it feels like no one else understands…and honestly, they don’t. I don’t care what anyone says … Because you are the only you. You are the only one who knows how you feel. You are the only one who can make decisions towards the ultimate you. Just know, that you are loved. By the universe, the people and things and experiences that make you happy, and that make you come alive, you are loved. And in time, your badass-self will take the next step towards your next adventure, you just have to lift up your foot.

Woohoo, What a Ride!

You can leave nothing of your own.
To those you leave behind
you can only provide
the words of others.
You can advise, inspire, motivate
Influence, indicate and stimulate.
You may recognize, reveal, notify
Convey, identify and signify.
But you must communicate
through the minds of those before you.
What would you say?

Here’s what I might say:

“All growth begins at the end of your comfort zone.”

“Sometimes life is about risking it all for a dream no one can see but you.”

“Stop talking about all of the great ideas you have and DO something EPIC.”

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” — Mark Twain

“If you do not like where you are, then change it. You are not a tree.”

“Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.”
– Confucius

“Life is about kicking ass, not kissing it.”

“…fall in love only when you’re ready, not when you’re lonely.”

“People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.”

“Music expresses that which cannot be put into words and that which cannot remain silent”
– Victor Hugo

“I have found that if you love life, life will love you back” – Arthur Rubinstein.

“Happiness is a journey, not a destination.’
-Alfred Souza

“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive and go do it. Because what the world needs is more people who have come alive.” – Howard Thurman.

“Life isn’t a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, latte in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming ‘Woohoo WHAT A RIDE’!”

The Waiting is the Hardest Part

The Waiting.

One of the most common and most difficult things we do is wait. Sometimes it’s painful, sometimes it’s exciting. Sometimes the end result is worth the wait, sometimes it feels like it was a waste of time. Unfortunately, it’s hard to know the worth of the wait until you go through with it…but it’s the thrill of the chase, the curiosity of the unknown or the excitement of the best possible outcome that keeps us going.

In some way the wait is always worth something…we are surprised, disappointed, overjoyed and angered after waiting every day, no matter what it allows us to move on to the next step. The outcome determines how to proceed…in your day, in your It’s frustrating, overwhelming and stressful…but at the same time it can be, like in my current situation (that I’ll reveal later), it’s exciting, motivating and finally the start of a future plan. I want my new adventure to begin ASAP but I have to WAIT! I have to wait on emails, notifications, processes; but mostly I just have to wait for time to pass. In the end it will still have worth no matter what because then I’ll know what to do next…and then I’ll wait for something else!

The wait is not always controllable, that is when patience is important but if it is controllable…if you can shorten your wait time in a legal, positive and helpful way, you go for it.

Wait, as a verb, is first defined: stay where one is or delay action until a particular time or until something else happens. I am thankful that my particular wait has a specified end date and time…the indefinite wait: remain in readiness for some purpose or be left until a later time before being dealt with, in my opinion, has to be the painful kind but still has worth, like waiting for love for example.

In order to pass some time in my wait, here is an amusing list of things we wait for in our lives…use your time wisely and enjoy the moment, even if you are waiting because the truth is we are always waiting for something or someone.

phone to charge
roller coasters/rides
Secretary of State or BMV
rain/storm to pass
meat to thaw
food to cook
water to boil
snow to melt
leaves to fall
dog to poop
software/apps to download
iPods/phones to sync
planes to land
planes to take off
fruit to ripen
wounds to heal
nails/hair to grow
music artists to play in our town
movies to show at the theater
books to release
ability to legally drive
ability to legally drink
your date to arrive
your date from yesterday to call
having children
telling the truth
hearing the truth
the beer or soda to get cold in the fridge
ice cubes to freeze
our abs to magically appear
to lose weight
to gain weight
soreness to go away
zits/canker sores to go die
grades to be posted or sent out
loans to be approved
paint/glue to dry
cookies to cool before frosting
bills to arrive
test results to come in
a special event to start
seeing family
vacation to start
the weekend to start
applications to be processed
graduate school admissions decisions

What are you waiting for?

Song Title Inspired Poetry: Teenage Dream

A poem inspired by the song titles of Katy Perry’s album “Teenage Dream” released in 2010. I have found this is an interesting way to create a story, it could turn out in a number of ways depending on an artist’s style, genre, or album theme. This technique made me write and think in a whole new way! Enjoy!

Last Friday Night,
I had a Teenage Dream
about The One That Got Away.

There were California Girls
and an Extraterrestrial Peacock.
Baby you’re a Firework, but
Who am I Living For?

I’m like a Pearl with a Hummingbird Heartbeat
as I Circle the Drain.
This is Not Like the Movies.

"Teenage Dream" Album Cover, 2010
“Teenage Dream” Album Cover, 2010
“Teenage Dream” Single Album Cover