In order to kick ass you must first lift up your foot.

“In order to kick ass you must first lift up your foot. —Jen Sincero; author, coach, self-quoter”

For the past month and a half, I have been unemployed. Graduating college and trying to find a job is probably one of the most stressful times in a person’s life. Finding a job, in general, is hard, but there is that added stress right after college. You spend four years preparing for your career in an established institution … You graduate … Then you decide to get an advanced degree, that’s two more years (for me)! Everyone says how proud they are of you and that you can do anything, but for some reason, you feel no sense of accomplishment. You apply, and apply, and apply and then you wait.

But then … You start receiving replies! All at once, several companies you’ve applied to decide to reach out to you within a couple days of each other. At last, skype interviews commence, phone interviews begin. A couple places bring you in for in-person interviews. And then … You wait some more.

It is borderline torturous.

You try to keep yourself busy but your stream of consciousness goes something like this …

Where else could I apply? What’s close… I don’t have a car. Could I ride my bike that far? Does that bike even work? Where could I get a bike for cheap? I guess I could borrow my brother’s car sometimes, or my mom’s. What could I do at home? There’s got to be a way to make money at home, something … I have bills coming, maybe I can call to lower my payment. Being an adult sucks. Ugh, I’m gonna watch Netflix.

One Hour Later

Okay, back to work. Indeed.com, here we go. What other skills can I search? Am I good enough though … I need to work on my portfolio … (opens WordPress) … I need to get better at this, and this, and this … (opens lynda.com) … Oh, let’s learn about this!

One Hour Later

Ugh, I’ve been sitting here too long. I should workout. Gosh, I wish I had money for a gym membership. Maybe I could work at a gym? Okay, one more application. Must … Earn … Money … Man I’m hungry. Damnit, I need money for that too.

This continues, day after day. Depression and anxiety start to take over. You start to think to yourself, “It’s over, I’ll live on the street … ” “I am not good enough” “No one wants to hire me” “I just will sleep forever, and watch Netflix … damn that costs money too”

Slams head on desk.

Then you realize something. It’s all a process. A journey with ups and downs, twists and turns. This is the world we live in. All of these wonderful people in my life tell me I can do this, am I missing something? This is when I turned to my books …

During my job search process, I finally reached the “inspired” phase. Mostly because I started reading the book, You Are a Badass, by Jen Sincero. There’s something about a stranger telling me, that I’m a badass, that made me want to read more… how does she know? This surely can’t apply to everyone.

I was wrong. The following passages changed my perspective…

“You are perfect. To think anything less is as pointless as a river thinking that it’s got too many curves or that it moves too slowly or that its rapids are too rapid. Says who? You’re on a journey with no defined beginning, middle or end. There are no wrong twists and turns. There is just being. And your job is to be as you as you can be. This is why you’re here. To shy away from who you truly are would leave the world you-less. You are the only you there is and ever will be. I repeat, you are the only you there is and ever will be. Do not deny the world its one and only chance to bask in your brilliance.”

“You are loved. Massively. Ferociously. Unconditionally. The Universe is totally freaking out about how awesome you are. It’s got you wrapped in a warm gorilla hug of adoration. It wants to give you everything you desire. It wants you to be happy. It wants you to see what it sees in you.”

“Nobody who ever accomplished anything big or new or worth raising a celebratory fist in the air did it from their comfort zone. They risked ridicule and failure and sometimes even death.”

“If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.     —Lao Tzu; ancient Chinese philosopher, founder of Taoism, could have been one guy or a mythical compilation of many, nobody really knows for sure” 

― Jen SinceroYou Are a Badass: How to Stop Doubting Your Greatness and Start Living an Awesome Life

This book has changed my life and I highly recommend it! (Especially the audio book). This book got me to today, the day I am proud to announce that I have been offered a position at the University of Michigan as an AV Technician! Go blue!

We all go through changes and stressful times, where it feels like no one else understands…and honestly, they don’t. I don’t care what anyone says … Because you are the only you. You are the only one who knows how you feel. You are the only one who can make decisions towards the ultimate you. Just know, that you are loved. By the universe, the people and things and experiences that make you happy, and that make you come alive, you are loved. And in time, your badass-self will take the next step towards your next adventure, you just have to lift up your foot.

Purdue Bucket List

  1. Attend Boiler Gold Rush – aka BGR aka Freshman Orientation.
    • Well of course!
      bgr
  2. Attend a basketball game
    • Absolutely
  3. Drink an entire Den Pop.
    • It was painful but yes.
  4. Eat at Triple X
    • Their breakfast is the best
  5. Get a milkshake at Pappy’s
    • Never got around to it, again, there’s still time.. as long as it stays open.
  6. Pull an all-nighter
    • More than I’d like to admit, I miss Hicks library
  7. Fountain Run
    • OH YES!
  8. Attend a concert in Elliot Hall of Music
    • Macklemore and Ryan Lewis, and Weird Al…not at the same show..
  9. Go to Harry’s Chocolate Shop
    • Just a couple of times 😉
      harry's
  10. Achieve a 4.0 for one semester
  11. Ride the Citibus
  12. Get a part time job
    • Good ole ITaP
  13. Get a drink from the Lion Fountain
  14. Live with a random roommate
    • And I’ll never regret it Zucc!
  15. Skip a class on purpose and for no reason at all
  16. Visit a professor outside of class for office hours
  17. Become the president of something
    • WIT (Women in Technology!)
      wit
  18. Shake hands with the university president
  19. Stay friends with someone all four years
    • Since STAR, Jess!
  20. Attend a football game
    • Particularly for “Shout” and the IU Sucks dance
  21. Join a random club
  22. Go for a ride on the Boilermaker Special
  23. Get a picture with Purdue Pete
  24. Get a picture with the World’s Largest Drum
  25. Take a nap somewhere on campus
  26. Go to a Fraternity party
  27. Go to a Baseball game (at the new field)
  28. Go to a Volleyball game
  29. Go to Trivia Night at Jake’s
    • Where I met a very special guy, Max, I wish I was a better girlfriend to you.
  30. Go to Famous Frank’s
    • Thanks, Jacob!
  31. Go to the Cactus
    • Thursday, the best and the worst night.
  32. Attend Breakfast Club
    • There is something exhilarating about drinking at 5 A.M dressed in a goofy costume.pirate
  33. Go sledding on Slayter Hill
    • I’m ashamed
  34. Walk under the Bell Tower
    tower
  35. GRADUATE.
    • Boom! Bachelor’s Degree.

Gosh, I miss life at Purdue sometimes. Great times with great people in a great place.

Boiler Up!

It’s Temporary: The Legal Clinic

Living in Chicago has been a blast. I’ve met so many new people, been to cool places, and I love my program thus far! I am almost done with my first film project! The tough part has been finding a job.  I applied to many different places in retail, restaurants, studios…nothing was working, until last Friday! I had an interview for DePaul’s Student Temporary Services and I was offered a job that day! I started work this past Monday.

What this means is I am basically a Temp worker for the university. My manager is contacted by different departments around DePaul’s campus when they need extra help in their office or on a project. If it works with my schedule then I could get assigned to that department for the time needed. My first job has been at the DePaul University Legal Clinic as a receptionist. Today is my third day, it’s been an experience. I don’t know much about legal advice or how law school is structured but I’m beginning to learn. One thing I know for sure is that the DePaul Legal Clinic does not take walk-ins!! The number one kind of call I have been receiving is people looking for legal council. Part of my job is to refer these callers to surrounding clinics..so if you need a legal referral in the Chicago area, I’ve got your back.

It’s challenging to be a temp…getting to know a new office, learning the best way to contact each person in the office, knowing who to ask what, knowing who comes in when, relaying messages, answering different types of phone questions (that usually I have know idea how to answer..especially legal advice, thank goodness for the trusty binder they gave me) and basically just figuring out their office flow.

Nobody likes change, I can imagine having a temporary receptionist or office person is frustrating…they are supposed to know things..and their the one asking questions? Fortunately, I’ve been lucky at this first job. Everyone has been really nice and helpful. I will definitely learn a lot as I float around to different departments; about different topics and about different styles of office life…it’ll be an educational experience and kind of a human experiment at the same time.

The best part about this job now is that it is in the building next door to my apartment building. I currently exist among four buildings and they’re all within a block! I hope this continues throughout the Winter!

This song doesn’t totally apply…but like me, It’s Temporary.

It’s Time to begin, isn’t it?

Finally I have a purpose.

If you read my last post at the end of July, you may know I had been waiting for something…I’m happy to announce I was waiting on my admissions decision into grad school and I was accepted! I am now a graduate student in Cinema Production at DePaul University!

It’s been a hell of ride to get to this point, a year ago I was starting my senior year at Purdue University and there is no way I would have ever  guessed this is what I would be  doing. Three months ago, I became a college graduate and had just got back from Europe…still clueless about what was next. One month and about thirteen days ago,  with the luck of finding this awesome program at DePaul and finding out about an Accelerated Admissions program offered by the College of Computing and Digital Media, I decided to apply for the Fall quarter. And a week later I was accepted.

After lots of preparation and support from my parents, I am now living in Downtown Chicago right in DePaul’s Loop Campus and I could not be happier. I had mentioned before, Chicago is the place I wanted to be since my internship two years ago. I finally made it! I’ll be here for at least two years, and if I’m lucky I will get a job here when I graduate… we’ll see where this adventure takes me.

Today is my first day of class. The adventure I’ve been waiting for is here! It’s Time to begin, isn’t it?